I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment
i am happy
4.30.2002
Wow, first post on here... this should be fun. Thanks to Arsbars for putting me on this thing, now i get to express my views on HER site! :D


Posted by: Anand at 11:25 PM

4.29.2002
I've decided that I want a corrado.... :)
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:55 AM

4.25.2002
46 days left...

Didn't goto the staff mtg, studied some spanish and then went home to sleep. The game wasn't too bad, I ended up reffing with Kate Lipka, found out in the process that three people are going to SCAD with me. I think that is damn cool!! I went home, didn't do much of anything and called it a day. Spanish was good this morning, we had a sub which is always great. I love Mrs Hutchinson to death, but sometimes you needa break from the normal routine.

The other day.. Tuesday I guess. Kevin approached me with job oppurtunity up at Yorktowne Sports. 10 bucks an hour starting out, and I won't have to worry bout the hassle of some stupid stuff. I mean it's my father, I can't go wrong there. I'll get experience with screenprinting, get good money but just have to drive an hour each way. But it's worth it, most the time I'll drive with him anyways, make life easier for him.
Posted by: Arleigh at 9:37 AM

4.24.2002
47 days left...

I have a staff mtg after school today, after which I need to get gas. I also have a lax game at 6:15 over at south river. Fun stuff, I'm with a chick from lax here at annapolis, a chick that I left or hoped to leave behind at st. mary's . Hopefully between gas and lax I can take a NAPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!! Anyways I'm done
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:44 AM

4.21.2002
Sorry bout not posting this weekend, it was kinda crazy/boring/nothingness. my cousins came up, did the family deali, went running alot, slept alot, bought new shoes.. went to a Navy lax game.. Didn't goto any Dub gtgs. Umm.. what else did I do, fixed a computer, played in the rain...

I really didn't do shit this weekend. Sorry about the random post, if you want I can ramble about the whole trail thing. Its so much fun on the x-country trails behind school. I took triton, and he didn't freaking run away!!!

ok i'm a bore later .
Posted by: Arleigh at 8:25 PM

4.19.2002
restraining order against my grandmother...... how fun ist that? ugh. thats all i got to say.
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:48 AM

51 days,....

Seans grandfather died yesterday, I feel so bad for him. Then there is that feeling of hopelessness.. I can't do anything for him... ohwell I'll write more after my dreaded Spanish test.
Posted by: Arleigh at 8:20 AM

4.18.2002
Oh, one more thing... 52 days I believe
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:21 AM

We must say goodbye
To our desires and needs
Time must hold them
For alittle while atleast.
The wind won't blow
Our love will last
No tornado can knock
Down that house of ours.

Will you love me till
All these days are past?
Memories are strong willed
I can't stop thinking
Can't get this out of my head
Now tell me, this is forever
No joke, no game that will be played.

Let me lay down my head
I want to feel your heart beat
I will collapse into you
My soul is yours to keep



random thoughts in math... anyways we get out in less then an hour.. well more like 40 minutes. I'm going home to clean my car, should be fun stuff.
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:21 AM

4.17.2002
Today... school, classes, staff meeting, sleep, car shopping again with mom... who knows what else...
You know, Sally Kravetz is one of the most selfish people I know.. then again I shouldn't talk because she is writing me a recommendation for SCAD. I just hate people that feel like the own their section or in her case the media center. Treating all the staff like shit, talking to kids like they are dumb, and making teachers feel like she is doing them a favor.

So what else annoys me... sorry it's my day to bitch. People on blogger or tripod or whatnot that say their site is yaddayadda.com when it reall is yaaddayadda.blogspot.com or yaddayadda.tripod.com I have a .com site, I payed for it, yes I host most my shit at tripod.com but I have crashingmonkies.com. Anyways, I think I'm done for the time being. Ugh you know what I want, my dog to be able to speak or something. He knows everythign about me, pretty much my bestbud with all my secrets- but he can't talk or give me advice. I'm not much of a bitcher if you know me, i'm the optimistic, well until recently with this damn routine I ahve been in.

Kristen isn't coming over today cuz she's a hella ton busy with school and briefs and whatnot. Ohwell, studying for my spanish test which is TOMORROW



Too Bad- Nickelback

Fathers hands were lined with dirt
From long days in the field
And mothers hands are serving meals
In a cafe on Main Street
With mouths to feed
Just trying to keep clothing on our backs
And all I hear about is
How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

You left without saying goodbye
Although I'm sure you tried
You call the house from time to time
To make sure we're alive
But you weren't there
Right when I'm needing you the most
And now I dream about it
How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

Father's hands are lined with guilt
For tearing us apart
Guess it turned out in the end
Just look at where we are
Made it out, still got clothing on our backs
And now I scream about it
How it's so bad, it's so bad

It's too bad, it's too bad
Too late, so wrong, so long
It's too bad that we had no time to rewind
Let's walk, let's talk
Let's talk

No time, last one, let's go



Posted by: Arleigh at 8:20 AM

4.16.2002
And the wheels on the bus go round and round, round and round... The wheels on the bus go round and round all day long... So, I did all my homework once, and studied for a test/quiz, I guess Kristen did something to help lol. Btw, if I didn't say so last night- thanks chica.
So I have a quiz/test in World Civ like I mentioned before. That should be fun... Why do I care about capital vs communism. Ha scratch that, this thing actually involves me for once.. education that you use. WOW Other then that nothing rally is going on today. I think it's supposed to be wickedly hot out, our weather is so weird. One day its freezing, the next its hot as a mofo.

21 Things I Want in a Lover -Alanis M

do you derive joy when someone else succeeds? do you not play dirty when engaged in
competition? do you have a big intellectual capacity but know that it alone does not
equate wisdom?
do you see everything as an illusion? but enjoy it even though you are not of it?
are you both masculine and feminine? politically aware? and don't believe in capital
punishment?

these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer

do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that loving someone can actually feel like
freedom? are you funny? la self-deprecating? like adventure? and have many formed
opinions?

these are 21 things that I want in a lover
not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer
I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter
these are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover

I'm in no hurry I could wait forever
I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo
there are no worries and certainly no pressure
in the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow

are you uninhibited in bed? more than three times a week? up for being experimental?
are you athletic? are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? are you not addicted?

...curious and communicative...




Posted by: Arleigh at 8:12 AM

4.15.2002
links to add to offsite

http://www.exegetica.com/wendy/
http://www.latenightpool.com/
http://shrike.depaul.edu/~lwiora/index.html

So, I'm getting tutored by Kristen in spanish and english... Monday, Wed, and Thursdays nights. Might be intresting, if I pull off all A's/B's it will be sooooo worth it.
Posted by: Arleigh at 1:43 PM

Kristens whole marine thing this past weekend.. ha yes she's smoking a cigar. Kinda funny, from what I heard she had no clue what to do.






Posted by: Arleigh at 1:30 PM

So, this weekend yeh... Friday night I went to gtg. Saturday I had lax games and slept... and sunday i slept... FUNNNNNN I'm so sore from the lax games, three in a row is not a too good. Anyways yeh... 54 days. thats all i ahve to say.
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:28 AM

4.12.2002


http://www.roomsixteen.com/


http://www.barkins.com/

http://homepages.nyu.edu/%7Ejsp237/
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:40 AM

HMPH Fridayfive.org is down.. how dumb
Posted by: Arleigh at 10:08 AM

"God what can I do, I wish I could do something... 5 weeks, 5 weeks of friends, 5 weeks of limited phone calls and emails. What is there to do? I have to respect it, I have to let it be. It isn't my future, it isn't the path I am going down. I guess I will learn to live, live with out the thousand IMs or phone calls, or nights spent listening to the breath on the other end of the phone. There isn't anything left to say, it's been talked out too far; nothing I can do to change it all. I would pay for a day, one day like those three we had... I would pay for open love yous and touches not given. To be able to say tomorrow instead of sooner or later..."
Posted by: Arleigh at 9:55 AM

4.10.2002
You never will be the person you can be if pressure,
tension and discipline are taken out of your life.
James G. Bilkey

Best conversations passed- phone calls from your friends who are at Griffins, in the bathroom, and they can't work the toilet. Being called at noon to be told you have a gtg for dubs at 1.

So searching the blogs I found a chick that does the "Friday Five" her site is here: scarywhitegirl.net
To answer her last weeks friday five... http://www.fridayfive.org/

1. What are the first things that you do in the morning to start your day? Answer the phone to Anands voice at 630 every morning- he's my alarm clock. I dont' wake up to alarms, but I wake up to phone calls (don't ask me) I turn on my computer check email, either go running or take a shower and lay in bed to "air dry" until about 730, then I eat/dress and do that normal stuff that people do in the morning.

2. What are the last things that you do at night before going to bed? Say goodnight to whoever I might be talking to online, or finish homework, or pass out while during homework, then let out the dog, dry him off if it's raining, then we both get into bed :o) I love my dog haha.

3. What daily routine have you recently added to your day? Going home for lunch instead of staying at school, not daily but sometimes when I'm craving hot pockets.

4. What routine do you wish you get rid of? uhh... not doing my laundry, that should be a daily thing

5. What's the one thing that makes you feel like something is missing if you don't do it some point within your day? checking my email, I am an internet freak- if you know me I barely can go a day with out checking my email...

Blogs of the day::
http://kicie.net/blog/
http://www.ericfrommelt.com/


Posted by: Arleigh at 10:33 AM

4.9.2002
http://lawver.net/ I really need to fix the "offsite" links since well there isn't any at all!! You know whats crazy is its been a month- if you get me good if not ohwell.. over a month. Almost a week and a month. I know I know I look into things and think too far ahead; I can't help it really. It's my nature pretty much, thinking about things so far that they no longer matter. "Thinking through it" my 10th grade history teacher called it- I think through things and not stress or over worry myself with them. I wouldn't say that, I know I worry myself to death about certain issues and people.. but in the end it comes down to faith, and what the big man upstairs wants. I can't affect fate, or what in the end will happen- I can just have a good ole time until then.

I have to make up some work after school today, well I'm actually going to make up the work work next period (lunch); after I eat of course. I should also go apologize to my math prof about yesterday, because I ended up taking longer in my other tests then I thought. Ohwell.. I have till Thursday to make up a marking period of shit... errr. Oh I never mentioned how cool that art thigns is, I know everyone is as excited as I am... just not trying to get my hopes up incase nothing turns out.

Last night I went running, like mad far running. I ended up down bestgate near the water and back. Only reason I didn't run a freaking marathon was I didn't burn enough songs on my minidisc, so I was getting fairly annoyed with my repeating tracks. Maybe tonight, I think I could be a runner- not really cuz it is one of the most boring things, but it's such a great way to think and recap on the day/week/month etc. And its alot better then meditating for me, I dont' sit still for that long very well.

The song on repeat in my room right now is Melissa Etheridge- Sleep. It has so much meaning to me, but i can't even explain it. Kidna crazy to think. I miss Amber, I know it's a random thought.. but I miss her. She's changed so much, I've changed so much- but I miss going to the academy almost daily to sit there and talk- talk about anything on my mind. Even if it was dumb, or important, she took it all as being important, and really truely cared. What happened to that?? i know I have some great friends in life, Kristen and Anand are the best a person could ask for- but I still feel like I failed in the friendship somehow.

Sleep
(Melissa Etheridge)
After your laughter like thunder
After your skin like coffee and cream
After it takes our bodies into the night
After we've come to the extreme

I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heart beat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to your peace
And go to sleep

And when we've gone a million miles
Made true our dreams with sweat and bone
After we've built it up with our bare hands
Made strong a place we can call home

And when the light in my eye is fading
When running water becomes too deep
Finally angels turn my fire to dust
And when my soul's no longer mine to keep

I want to lay down on your shoulder
Just inside your arm
I want to listen to your heartbeat
And your breathing on and on
I want to lay down on your shoulder
Surrender to the peace
And just go to sleep



Posted by: Arleigh at 10:00 AM

4.8.2002
"One month plus a couple weeks left till graduation. Kinda scary that this day in two months I'll either be at the beach, drinking (eck no); or I'll be working; sleeping. My point is in 2 months I no longer will be that high school senior, it's when my life starts. Yeh I still have 6 months till I'm 18, but once I step across th stage for a year I don't have classes to fail, I will be doing my art thing and work thing. I'm excited, well anxious."

That would be my random thought of the day, just can't wait till get out of here- like every other senior I know. Class of 02 is on the way out the door as our principal said this morning. So things have happened, and things haven't in the past few days, I wish I could explain it to you guys... I can't even explain it to my bestfriend how can I explain it to the random people that come to my site??

Today I have a math test after school, should be fun; gotta remember a damn proof. I hate memorizing things, I'm no good at remembering things I really should. I remember that dumb stuff like my friends locker combos for when they forget or what days the cafe serves my certain drinks. I guess it has somethign to do with what you really WANT to remember, and what you should. The two are usually not the same, which in my case is a very bad thing. I guess it's mind over matter also, if you think about it hard enough you can make yourself think to do it or rather want to do it.

I've been surfing blogsnob and blogger alot, mainly for random viewings of great looking sites. It is a great way to get ideas, esp. for me when I'm stuck and don't have any clu where to go with my art. That reminds me I'm going to West Annapolis today to see if the art store is hiring. Do you know how extremly cool that would be to work at a full fledged art store, not a crafts store, or hobby store. but ART store.

Wow, see what I find on these weblogs?? "i never realized how much i loved you until i felt the welcoming of the new morning in your embrace; the warmness of your face pressed to my chest - the innocence of an angel" -anon I wish I could explain this one too, but again I can't even explain it to my bestfriend how do I explain it to the random people that come here.

Posted by: Arleigh at 10:39 AM

4.7.2002
so i did nothing really but studied and looked for a job- that was my weekend. Friday I moved around my room and went to a dub thing, and saturday pretty much the same. Amanda was in for the week cuz she's an ass and has weeklong spring breaks. We chilled she fell in love with VWs it was good times!!
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:19 PM

4.5.2002
http://www.buddhababy.org/ I think this is one of the most amazing sites I've seen in awhile. What is crazy is she has like 40 other sites she maintains too... one day that will be, right now I don't have the time or patience. Anyways, so deali for today-- again cuz it changed. I have one more class, English I think the prof is here today, not TOTALLY sure. Esp. since Mrs Hutchinson dipped out today, supposedly some guy was screaming at her in the parking lot before school. I hate some people today, from that guy yelling to Ms Kravitz nitpicking at her staff, to students being flat out rude to teachers. After english I'm heading home to start doing my three million loads of wash, may move my room around. Really haven't decided on that. I also need to get a quote on my poor poor car :o(
http://www.chasingstars.com/sp/blog.html thats another great site- it was off the first one, one of the "adored" but it's a great simple layout. What i noticed by her and all her friends they do this column looking thing for all their pages/blog. Kinda intresting, not my kidna look, but I like. So after getting the quote for my car I am hanging out with anand probably, or sleeping or moving my room around.. then at 9 going to starbucks..

the car thing fell through, it was an automatic. I don't want a flipping automatic, i have one, i odn't like them. end of the story. So, that's today and tonight. If the plans will stick who knows.. i do know i have to clean thou.
Posted by: Arleigh at 12:41 PM

Yeh I haven't wrote in awhile, I killed my rear arse of my car... but I found a 93 jetta for a grand this morning.. first to post/email the guy about it. So I'm hoping myfolks will go for either trading in my car and have cash over, or fixing my car and letting my mom drive it till she figures out what she wants. Gotta convince the folks though, I think I'm going to go with Anand and look at the car tonight.. before going to Starbucks. SINCE SOMEONE BAILED ON ME TONIGHT :( :( Ohwell, hopefully they have fun going out doing their thing. Seriously I want them to have fun. Tomorrow I'm doing the whole yard work/ studying thing, and sunday waking up at the ass crack of dawn to goto Starbucks and ride with Anand to New Jersey for the Show n Go (car thing) And yes I said I'm studying tomorrow, with Becky Deafenbaugh.. gotta learn spanish and math somehow.

Anyways, Ms Hutchinson dipped school today so I don't have to stay after like I thought- and I might just leave as soon as anand gets outta class to look at this car...
Posted by: Arleigh at 9:12 AM

4.2.2002
Ok, I'm going to pass out after this post because this work is kicking my ass. So while running tons and tons of steps today I realized a few things, but I'm going to only list a few- then pass out like I said. Mainly I saw what I have been seeing, I was in a rut and needed out. I am out- totally sure of that one. You would be surprised what a random road trip around davidsonville around 530 today would do for a person :o) I just can't miss anymore school, and I'll be fine.. just gotta catch up with every damn thing on the list. Now I'm just waiting for a drunken phone call.. haha. Going to sleep. Night guys.
Posted by: Arleigh at 9:45 PM

cracking down on the books tonight- I'll try and write later tonight.. I should be up pretty damn late cuz SOMEONE is out drinking and I'll be too worried to sleep.
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:18 PM

You know I can't shake this feeling- I wish I could do something for Anand, I don't even know how he's been affected by it- or how close they were or anything..
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:39 AM

I think I may have a funeral service to attend sometime this week with Anand- I

In Memory Of Scott Sneed, you will be missed.
May you all learn from his mistake
http://forum.dtmpower.net/showthread.php?s=&threadid=29434&pagenumber=1


Anyways I'm out- I hate this feeling of not being able to do something for your friends.
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:38 AM

4.1.2002
This weeeknd was great, no complaints from me.. but I really gotta find a job. Promise I'll write more tonight or tomrorow or something...
Posted by: Arleigh at 12:31 PM


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