Never again
would I turn away from you
I'm so heavy tonight
But your love is alright
And I do believe

That not everything is gonna be the way
You think it ought to be
It seems like every time I try to make it right
It all comes down on me
Please say honestly
You won't give up on me
And I shall believe
I shall believe- Sheryl Crow

It's Thanksgiving, which means Christmas is less than a month. That thou, is besides the point. The point is I'm sick, on Thanksgiving. When I should be stuffing my face with turkey, mashed potatoes, pie and stuffing. I am sitting in bed trying to convince myself that I need sleep though its only 7pm. If I sleep my body will have energy to fight being sick, which will mean the quicker I can be myself, and more importantly, on my bike.

Sorry I have been so sparatic with my posts, it is winter so it seems like I have less time than I really do. It also means that I have less riding hours, especially if I work. (Which I really haven't been)

Everyone is home from college, or wherever they moved to. Well other than Val, she's still in basic for Air Force. Ya kno, that has to suck- to be so far away for Thanksgiving. Like Amber in Japan, or my other random friends that are tossed across the globe for various reasons. I know to some of them family is everything, and holidays with them means more to them, than it ever could to me. So to all you out there, Happy Thanksgiving, and I'm saying a prayer that you atleast get to talk to your family on days like these.

Now I am finally going to will myself to sleep, don't know how long I can deal with not being able to speak correctly.
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:16 PM

These are the days between your hopes and fears
These are the moments that are still locked here
There still inside even if she will not here
Like it or not this is what I got -Otown

Sorry I haven't been writing lately, all I seem to be doing is clubbing, sleeping and sometimes working. Yeh that sometimes working thing isn't a good thing. I have no hours, and I can't blame Parker but I may have to get a new job.

Don't know what else to talk about--- going back to bed.


Posted by: Arleigh at 8:13 PM

We live, we learn and yes we get hurt in the process. It's life, it's why we are put here. - It's my thoughtful thought of the day...

My 18th birthday is in a week, one week. There are three classes of people that are reading this, the 19+ that are saying who cares it is only a birthday. The kids that are younger than 18 saying "God I wish I was 18". Finally the people that just turned 18, that know exactly how I'm feeling. There are a couple key points in your life, 16th (you drive), 18th (you're legal) , you're 21st (you can drink), you're 40th (you hit the hill) and you're 100th (how the hell did I get this old). Out of all these I think the 18th is the most important. Sure it may be cause I am about to turn 18, or it may be because for once I have a clue what I am talking about. For the past few weeks I've been trying to put my life in order. Find a new truck type vehicle, figure out what I'm doing for school, fitting biking in my time some how, and simply figuring out where I go from here.
In a week I have no ties to my parents, nothing to keep me here in what I've called home for the past couple years. It is all on me if I make it or don't. This is where the music either starts or stops.. The bills will be coming in my name now. A little overwhelming if you ask me . I think the one good thing out of this birthday is I can legally go clubbing, and everything else is just bonuses that aren't wanted.

I guess to me next Wednesday means I have a reason to "push the restart button" as I've been calling it lately. Now I have to figure out what I want to do once I do push that button...
Posted by: Arleigh at 2:13 PM

The words that enlighten the soul are more precious than jewels.- Hazrat Inayat Khan

No I didn't fall off the side of the earth. I've just been extremly busy, with work, trying to find another job, car hunting and what not. I'm excited cuz my birthday is in a WEEK!! Other than that nothing is really new.. I'll talk lil bit more later.
Posted by: Arleigh at 7:57 PM